Some thoughts in my head as of late. .

I'm one of those statistics you hear on the news of a college graduate working in a field completely unrelated to the field I studied.  I've been rejected more times than I would care to admit yet somehow I forget that feeling of not being enough until the rejection happens again and I'm left feeling like my life has been a waste.  I failed to get a teaching job and now my certification is expired and I need over 100 hours of continuing education. So what now.  Am I destined to be a person who lives paycheck to paycheck in an unfulfilling job with little chance of advancement? 
I know people say life is what you make it but I'm honestly tired of fighting to reach some unattainable goal when I watch others around me get what they've  worked so hard for. . I'm not saying I want a teaching contract but just some direction.  If the dream is gunna be taken do I have to stay in the bottom of the heap. Don't get me wrong.  I'm incredibly blessed. I just am discontent and don't know how to fix it. I really want my life to count for something. . Yet here I am working my 40 hr work week I'm a town where I have few friends and little chance to go anywhere else.
I guess I'm done.