God's unending GRACE!!!

This blog is dedicated to Nathan Cole and Derek Harvey and the lady at the banquet at HWAG!

This is a story of a woman who should listen more to people God places in her life but doubts herself too much.

As all of my Texas friends know I had a pretty interesting Fall semester. I had 12 hrs of classes and the whole interview process for internship. All in all the semester went pretty well as for the classes but this blog is being written to give GLORY to God for what He did even through my complaining and CONSTANTLY asking HIM what HE thought HE was doing. Crazy huh? Questioning God about my life? I honestly asked God was He trying to ruin my life. Not that I have lived through the whole process of 2 interviews and waiting to find out if i was placed and finding out that i didn't get placed in Commerce and then getting placed in Greenville and then more waiting to find out who my mentor teachers were and even what grade I was placed in. I knew what school I got and wasn't exactly ecstatic about it but dealt with it.

So fast forward to yesterday! The FIRST seminar of the semester! Boy was that SCARY! The amount of paper work is crazy! However a good practice to get into because documentation is VITALLY important in education. The interns FINALLY found out who they were placed with and what grade. I knew I was placed at Travis but I had never been in the school before in my life so that made me extremely nervous! So I sat through seminar and all the info. that was given to us. Then the residents placed at my school volunteer to take the interns to Travis to meet our mentors. (sigh of relief). So what happened was that I got first grade and Kindergarten. My first grade teacher was told to especially use and abuse me..which excites me..because i'll get to help teach kids to read.

Info:
I am an intern for the first semester and am in the classroom 2 days a week and then have seminars on wed. Then the second semester I will be a resident and in the classroom 5 days javascript:void(0)a week.

So this whole extremely long blog is to say, Don't doubt God he is always up to something good and rarely evokes harm(if ever). He will always do what is good for me..even when it seems horrible.

I've been feeling a little stressed as of late. I feel very unprepared for my internship that starts this friday! I want to be there for people in the merce but everything is pointing to moving..its like impossible to get a job in Commerce.! I want to stay though! I really need the hand of God to move in my situation!

DAB in 11 days

I got recommended the Daily Audio Bible (DAB) to help with my New Year's resolution to read the bible and it is truly amazing. Things I have learned in the last 11 days.
1. God will always keep his promises. If He makes a promise than you can carve it into stone and know it will come true.
2. Jesus came to Earth to seperate the real and the fake and to bring the kingdom down. Hallelujah!
3. My perfect Match(hubby) is out there

Things that I find particularly interesting:
- the need for blood to cover sin...
- how things look impossible and then it happens
- how bold the proverbs are..not really ever read them before.

Scripture I want to remember:
Proverbs 3:5-12
Genesis 20-26-The story of Abraham/Sarah/Isaac/Rebekah!

Be prepared..this is likely to be long but i don't really care..its not like anyone reads this anyway..which is actually a good thing.
My questions for God:
1. Why are you leading me down a road that seems to have no end? Am I on the right road? Personally, with children's church, with friends, with life? If not, i need direction in which to go.
2. Why is my relationship with Carolyn so difficult? I truly love her. I wish I was more like her in many ways...and yet I seem to spout off hurtful words..semi regularly.
3. When is my family going to be ok? Why must my little bro go through so much? What is my role in the situation?
4. I know your not silent in my life yet it feels like we're not as close. What can I do to help this?
5. I want to feel like part of the body of Christ yet I don't? Why? and can you help?
6. What am i supposed to do now that I am placed in Greenville? Am I supposed to stay in Commerce? Why do i get so many different opinions? Who am I supposed to listen to
7. Am I doing the right series for children's church? I feel like I am doing them a disservice. I am feeling very unlistened too

As you can see, I have questions for God but I am actively seeking His response..or at least I hope I am! I am sick of taking out my frustrations out on the people I love the most...primarily tiffani, carolyn and michal. I really need answers..